ewwwwww.... i just went to confrences last nigh

i really dont like confrences now my parents are gunna hover over me when i do my homework so now i kant go on some wwebsites i want untill im done with homework n i dont even think ill be able to get on after that n that really sux..... i rally hate my life there are only a few good things in my life and thats wat keeps me 2gether and keeps me from doing stupid shit like my boyfriend my friends ive been talking to l8ly and some of my family other than that the world kan kiss my ass

topaz is gunna talk about topaz in the third person again

Topz is so happy right now Topaz gets to c Topaz's boyfriend this weekend so topaz is extreamly happy if anyone has anything they want Topaz to talk about just tell Topaz Topaz will be happy to listen then Topaz will blog about it Topaz says this is gunna be so much fun but Topaz is really board right now Topaz wants to know if anyone knows any good music that Topaz can get cuz Topaz wants new music but Topaz doesnt know wat to get.........

omgz.... im freaking out.....

i have to make a speech that gets recorded and sent out for judgeing by veterens n its like a nation wide compatition n ive ask a coupple people wat they think a few said it was ok another one said so manny things that i might as whell have re wrote the paper n i asked my teacher n she was like its fine.... im like NICE WAY TO BUILD MY CONFIDENCE B*I*T*C*H!!!!!!! i hate speech class hmmm i really dont want to give this speech it is absalutly terrible and im prob gunna b the first one eliminated which sux yeah i know nice way to build my self coonfidence but we i dont kare any more i just want skewl to be done and over with i just want to skip through it.................................................... welll imma go get my stupid speech done and over with oravua

hey yalls

hey this is just a random post cuz im in studyhall and i am really board so ok ummmm hi.......... i dont partucularily like skewl n im just really board i have no idea why im makeing this post but i figured since i havent posted in a while i might as well do something so here it is nawt that interesting is it ooooo i gots some really kewl pix

ok i really didnt want to use this one but i couldnt find the other one i wanted so this is wat i put instead

f*** love...

really what is love does anyone know.... cuz i thought that true love kan concure anything but obviously i was wrong.... dead wrong..... love doesnt exsist it is just a falce hope that people think they feel when they are attracted to some one.... i let my gaurd down n my heart got smashed into a thousand tiney little peices.... so if you say that love is real you are wrong its stupid and meaningless... F*U*C*K LOVE.......................

lolz i jkjk but that is some peoples view on love cuz they cant find the right person to spend it with to love to b loved by.... so in my oppinion love is real and it can b found... sometimes in the most unlikely place like at ur parents christmas party or a friends birthday party.... who knows but it kan be found you just have to keep looking

new poem

i have a new poem that i should most likely post n im going to but i dont have the time right now i mean i dont have the classes that i can get on the computer otherwise i would post it then,...... i would post it now but there are only a few minutes left of class n i need to get my stuff gatherd to go home soooo... ill post it later

hahahahahahahahaha i find this extramly funny

i have basic wood as a class and its anything but easy and i am the only girl in my class with 6 or 7 gpuys (nawt a big class but still a class(i needed the credit n i like working with wood it calms me....) lolz i just got that that can b so wrong but who cares back to wat i was saying...... it is midterms today and i am done with two full projects with nothing to do but come up with a thirrd project..... i dont want to do that so im on my computer.... but anyways im needing to find a third project and all the guys in my class are just starting on there second project..... its pretty funny that and i have the best grade in the class.... i just find that really funny and if i make a mistake i know how to make it look like its sposed to b like that... hmmm.... im board with this post now imma upload my picture for it then post it..... haha i know you didnt ask for a play by play but i dont care i find it rather funny

newest poem HURT

it hurts to know
that you dont love me
it hurts to know you lie
but no matter how much
you hurt me i will always
be by ur side
crying and begging
for you to never leave
i need you badly
you keep me at ease
i know you love me too
how deep i will never know
my love is unconditinal
and i will love you till the end of eternity.....
ok i know it sux but i made it up on the spot i didnt think i just wrote

sadness

i am sad now... my bday is gunna b forgotten about there is not gunna b anything special going on for my bday and im probably gunna b sitting at home all by my lonesome tis sux big harry monkey b***z..... hmmm..... i really dont know wat to do ifeel like crawling under a rock n eather dieing or crying... i had somethin gspecial planned for my bday but since the person i want to spend it with is grounded till basicly the end off all eternity i kant do anything it makes me so sad........ i feel like crap right now i think i might b comeing down with something which is surprizeing bcuz i never get sick i havent been sick since the 4th grade......... i have nothing to talk about....... ooooo a bug...... it was on my computer screeennn.... splat... haha i killed it... its now a dead buggy

holey shiz nits

O MA GAWD IT IS F***ING COLD OUSIDE..... wow.... i dont like winter it is 2 cold....and i dont like the summer cuz its two hawt... omg i kant believe i never posted this one i feel so stupid now... well ok maby i am stupid but that is beside the point.............

i dont know wat to name this one....random rant

i love to draw n create designs n stufff but i absalutly hate art class... i kant stand it you try to do something the way you think it should be done and the way you like it then the teacher pops out of nowhere n starts yelling at you that you are doing it wrong n that it has to be exactly the way they have it done... if they want it done there way so badly then y dont they make a copy of it give it to every student n tell them to coppy it .... i made that suggestion to they teacher n she was all like its nawt sposed to b exactly the same as mine then i said then we should b able to do it the way we think it looks right n she was like no its sposed to be done the way i have it done... if you ask me that makes no sence cuz she just counteracted what she said.. i do not like art class at all... i like to draw free style of art nawt the way teachers say it has to b done....... n our student art teacher is the same way n when i asked him to show me how to draw something he was like you kan do it figure it out and bla bla bla bla bla it was like yeah real nice help... HE WAS TEACHING SPOSED TO BE TEACHING THE CLASS CUZ OUR TEACHER HAD HIM DO THAT....... that just pisses me off when teachers do that..... I KANT STAND IT!!!!!!!!!!!! i almost ditched class too.. i got my agenda sygned to go to the bathroom n i was gone for like a half our thats only 1/3 of the class period though.... i got to go now i might finish this rant later may not... i have to do stupid dishes..... uggg... endless torture

November 1st & 26th

i know this picture doesnt belonge with the subject but i like it n if you dont like that i put it there you kan go suck an egg...

i kant waite till November 1st and 26th mainly cuz the first is my bday and im more excited for the 26th nawt bcuz it is thanxgiveing bcuz thats the day my bfs birthday is we r only 1 year and 25 days apart kan you believe that omgz i so kant waite i am so excited..... uuuuugggg still in math class have nothing to do then i realize that october is almost half over and i got excited cuz i relize wat next month is NOVEMBER!!!!!!! i am so happy n board uuuugggg does anyone know wat i kan do to pass the time in class????? i have 4 classes a day A days and B days each class is an 1 & 1/2 hours long.... i kant b on the computer the whole time cuz i get yelled at.. i kant tell you how manny times ive been yelled at by teachers this year..... surprizeingly i havnt gotten any detentions yet....... im maga oober galacticly board... i know that may nawt make sence to some but it makes compleate sence to me.......... well i have to go on break now so i have to publish this and do we the teacher says so ttyl yalls...... ;)

math test...

yay my math test has been posponed yay i hate math i absalutly hate it n im no good at it but surprizeingly i pass the quizes n tests n im passing the class but i hate math i kant stand it.... have i mentioned that i hate math???? lolz.... the main reason i am bloging about skewl right now is maby bcuz im at skewl n i dont like it and i find it surprizeing that i am passing hmmmmmmm.... like i said earlyer im sposed to b doing homework but im nawt im on blogspot instead.... HAHAHA skewl sux.... but i do get to c my friends at skewl so thats the only pluss other than the computers and skewl email... but we still have so manny restrictions with the internet its nawt funny... they wont even alow us to look up pictures on yahoo... but i found a cheet to get around that i think its funy how i kan outsmart skewl teachers and teck geeeks that work on our computers.... again i say I HATE HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!! but at least the test was posponed even if we do have homework... actually i would have rather taken the te cuz i couldof passed the test n gotten it over with now i have to wate to pass the test.... did i mention i hate skewl..... if i have bad grammer i appologise thats just how i talk bad grammered... i try to use good grammer but you know its funner to use bad grammer n have people wander wat the hell you are saying... well anyways i might as wellpost this n do some other stuff i have other websites n stuff to go on but i will blog occasionally you kan count on that....

homework

i dont know about any of you but i dont lke homework wat so ever i try everything i kna to avoid it.... but surprizeing ly im nawt failing cuz i pass all of the tests... thats surprizeing cuz i guess on most of it cuz i dont do well with skewl im surprizeid that im nawt failing....im working on world geography right now i really dont want to do it thats y im on blogspot right now... lolz... i always find something more interesting than homework to do and surprizeing ly i never get caught when im nawt "on task" as the teachers would say... hahaha... im smarter than a teacher... my skewls football team sux we lost our homecomeing game 14 - 40 n i even told the coach of the football team sux n thats wat happened lolz i knew that was gunna happen... i should prob get off now so i kan work on my skewl work but i dont want to cuz ill just pass the next test anyways.... who knows im just really board n homework is really boaring..... hmmmm. i really dont know wat to do right now...

pictures

song

follow me and everything is allright ill b the one to tuck u in at night n if u want to leave i kan garentee you wont find no body elce like me.... you dont know how you met me you dont know y u wont turn around n say good bye all you know is when im with you i make you free like a fish in the sea im singing follow me n everything is all right ill b the one to tuck you in at night and if you want to leave i kan garentee you wont find nobnody elce like me......

about me...

the about me that is on my blog is nawt mine it is my cuzins cuz she has a blog on here and so do i so yeah that is compleatly not mine all hers

poems.....

WHAT IS LOVE...what is love.. its never there.. like the air... i never feel... i give it up... its not for me.... to the endless darkness... i shall endear.... this nex one took 1st place in a natinal compatition and got published in a magazine DARKNESS.... i sink into darkness... there is no life... no love.... no hope... there is only dispair... i do not eat... i kan not eat.. i am encased.... in darkness... i admit defeat... TO THE HEART... to the broken heart... i never got... cuz to my love i never gave... noone will know... just how i feel... behind this door.... i am sealed... FEELINGS.... it saddens me when you are sad...it hurts me when you are hurt... it fills me with joy to know u are happy... i feel the love if you love... it breaks my heart to see you cry... it makes me happy to see you laugh... to know you still care... it says alot... i care too.. but mostly for you... THE UNKNOWN... nawt gunna post this one cuz it might offend some people... DEPRESSION..... depression... two things.. loneliness and darkness.. all alone.. no meaning to life.. no reaon to live... nothing to suffice... nothing to live for... no deepness... no attraction... no love.. no light... because its dark.. lonely... its nothingness.... NO LIGHT... light burns... love is dull... night is awsome...day equils pain.. night brings comfort... COMFORT... this type of comfort... doesnt come to the... faintest of hearts.. it comes to the wicked... the mean.... the demeaning.... this you stay... it awakens you... deprives you... saddens you... last one... where is the love... it was once there.. now tis not... i loved once.... i fear i will never love again.. for my love is gone... and so are my feelings...

FIN

Topaz speeks in the third person about cookies

Topaz likes cookies do u like cookies? Topaz thinks cookies smell good Topaz's favorite type of cookie is... wait Topaz doent have a favorite type of cookie. do u have a fav type of cooke Topaz thinks u have a fav type of cookie.. ok Topaz grows tierd of talking about cookies... Topaz doesnt know wat to talk about now.... Topaz is board.... Topaz iz talking to a persn from australia it is major for Topaz cuz she doesnt talk to manny people... ok Topaz is gunna stop rambling stupidly about Topaz's view on cookies n people.. ooooooo tumbleweed...
omg there is a tumbleweed sweet tumbleweed Topaz thinks tumbleweeds are kewl thats how board Topaz is omg did u see how big the tumbleweed is Topaz thinks it was huge