i HATE xmaz

ok my title just said it all..... i really HATE xmaz

wow...

my mind is going in so manny directions.... birthdays christmas semesters visiting ect....... im going crazy!!!!!!!!

OMFG!!!!!!!

this year is going so flipping fast!!! KAN YOU BELIEVE THAT CHRISTMAS IS ALREADY NEXT WEEK!!! and omg i am so sad..... :'( but anywho i might get to c my bf on wednesday.... kant thursday cuz its chritmas eve and friday is christmas.....anyway my emotions are wackey bye bye

:'(

i called and noone answered and i never got a call back.... i hope nothing is wrong.... i hope nothing happened yesterday......... im sad i wish i knew wat was going on.

i'z iz super dooper sad face:(

i have semester test comeing up and the hardest of them all is probably going to be eather spanish or basic woods.... i think spanish is going to be the hardest...... i have to take semesters for just about every class world geography math speech art spanish physical science there is no smester test for study hall if there wer that would be retarted and basic woods. i am haveing a bad day today i couldnt even remember how to spell super! how stupid am i????? then i couldnt get my sucker open and i am just retarded... im so flipping retarded i couldnt even spell retarded right...

hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhmmmmmmm

i know i havent posted anything in a while cuz i am so bussy and i dont have wierless at my house so i kant do it over the weekend but anyways i am so flipping bored right now........uugggggg i am so flipping boared right now and i dont know wat to post about.... i mean i have alot of things on my mind but i kant say them cuz i dont have the right to
LOLA BUNNY

>:(

i am so fucking pissed off right now! people keep sending me emails telling me not to involve them in a fucking fight between me and my ex. and im nawt fucking involving them its my fucking ex that is emailing them and involving them and it is pissing me off. then i have fucking retards texting me and bothering me asking me to do stuff i don't want to fucking do and uggggg. and my sister (best friend in the world) got into an accident and i hope she gets better soon!

BUT PEOPLE NEED TO LEAVE ME ALONE IF THEY DON'T HAVE ANYTHING INTELLIGIBLE TO SAY TO ME!!!!!!

music

i am working on a play list of some of my favorite songs and new songs and whatnot. so if any one knows any good music or wants to give me an idea of there favorite songs or something that would be really kewl.

:)super happy face(:

i'z iz super hapy face now. i got to talk to my bf for most of yesterday.... i get to talk to him longer 2day cuz its an early out. i was thinking about calling sometime durring the night but i didnt know if his parents would get pissed if i called that late. yeah i dont know.... hopefully i get my homework done so i get to talk to him longer. OMG WE ONLY HAVE 2WEEKS FROM 2DAY TILL CHRISTMAS BREAK..... then i get to talk to him even longer durring the day!!!!! damn but that also means that i have semester tests comeing up. son of a bitch!!! i dont want to take semesters. OOOOOO I MIGHT GET TO C MY BOYFRIEND THIS WEEKEND AGAIN ALSO!! i only have to ask one of my friends for a ride and get an answer from my parents! hopefullly i kan go i kant wait......
ps. imma put a picture on later cuz i kant now.

:(super sad face):

last saturday was more dreamlike than a few weeks ago it was so undescribeable. then it was followed by one of the worst. all i had to do on sunday was just sit and read and do chores. my phone bairly rang once and when it did it was my sister that called me. i had to go all day without hearing his voice. it was pure agonizeing torture. i called him around one in the afternoon and his mom said that he was at something(i dont remember what though.) and i never got a call back. i waited all day and nothing. i dont know why but i had some strange sence of hope that he would call sometime durring the night just to say hi.... but he didnt. this sux........ now today is going to be horrible. im probably overexagerateing this but i dont kare. i miss him, and the sound of his voice.

The Most Romantic Rose

the black rose is the most romantic rose. it is also my favorite rose. it is sayed that the first black rose was traditionally a white one died with bats blood to get the unique black color of it. it was given to loved ones as a sighn of the depest love. but some portray the rose as something compleatly opposite of what it means. some people see the black rose as i sighn of death mourning or grievence. most people think that if you give a black rose to someone that eather means you want them dead or they are grieveing for lost loved one.
but for me i see the black rose for its true meaning and what it is supposed to stand for. i see it as the deepest love someone could have for another. although black roses are very rare and very expencive (if you kan find them). i think black roses wer ment for some higher perpose that some people just dont comprehend. like love.
love was given to us not for us to take advantage of it and to tear it to shreads in another in the prosses of breaking there hearts. i think that a broken heart is well mended when you find that one true somebody that you belong with. then ur broken heart heals like it was never broken in the first place and you go right on loveing the person you should have lovein the first place.
but most things happen for a reason even if we dont want them to. i think that the meaning behind the black rose is far more complex than anyone gives it credit for. well i think i better post this post b4 i get even farther off track


Blood.Hate.Love.Tears&Warmth

Blood.Hate.Love.Tears&Warmth

there are reasons why i added warmth to my headding is because i cant wait to be rapped in the warm arms of my boyfriend. being in his arms make me feel safe, like all my worries melt away, like i dont need to fear anymore. i hope that tomarrow comes fast, i cant deal with this anymore. getting told to go kill myself, recieveing threats that imma get the shit beat out of me, getting told by some of my friends that everyone is spreading rumors saying that im talking shit about everyone. i dont talk shit to try and avoid it but apperantly im just the ugly retarted outcast. (according to practicly everyone i know.) only one person seems to think otherwise and i dont c how he kan think that way and how he can love me i just dont c how anyone could ever think of me other than ugly & stupid.... i just dont c it. but who am i to try and change anyones judgement. noone ever listens to me and always thinks im lieing so i finnaly decited to just give up. theres no point in trying anymore.

Blood.Hate.Love.Tears&Warmth

Blood.Hate.Love&Tears

im going to put this all behind me and try to start out fresh. 4get all about my bad past. imma stop posting about it also cuz im sure noone wants to hear about it anyways and well nothing ever gets solved.
imma put some lyrics to a song that i have stuck in my head just to get them out.
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if i could grant you one wish ide wish you could c the way you kiss. oooo i love watching you babe when ur driveing me ooh crazy.
ooo i love the way you love the way you love theres nowhere elce ide rather be ooh to feel the way i feel with ur arms around me i only wish that you could see you the way you love me.
its not right its not fair what ur missing over there someday ill find a way to show you just how luckey i am to know you
oo i love the way you love the way you love me theres nowhere elce ide rather be ooh to feel the way i feel with ur arms around me i only wish that you could see you the way you love me (wowowo the way you love me)
theres a million reasons why theres love reflecting in my eyes
ooh i love the way you love the way you love me theres nowhere elce ide rather be ooh to feel the way i feel with ur arms around me i only wish that you could see you the way you love me
(wowowo the way you love me)
(wowowo the way you love me)
(wowowo the way you love me)
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i heard that on the radio durring basic woods class and now i kant get it out of my head. i think it is stuck there permanatly........ but who really kares... hmmmmmmmmmmm.... i dont know wat to talk about that song got my mind off track.. curse you song lyrics

Blood.Hate.Love&Tears.

i dont know wat to do anymore. one thing ended horrible (it was for the better though) another started beautifully and now the one still knows my number and his friends wont leave me alone. it makes me afraid to go onto my email and afraid to look at me phone. i dont know wat to do anymore. this is so frustrateing.... this morning i got a threat from one of his friends saying he was going to kick my ass. honesty i dont care im not going to fight back im just gunna let it happen. i dont have to proove i can fight one of his friends he is picking a fight with me then dragging other people into it cuz he is a fucking chicken. he hides behind people. he sarts shit then hides. but we. and i cant verywell tell some of my friends cuz theyll just think im starting drama and get pissy at me but w.e i mean who kares if i get the liveing shit beat out of me anyways. i certainly dont care.
Blood.Hate.Love&Tears

untitled 2

well i havent exactly figured out wat it is going to be about yet. but i have to start over cuz when i was typeing it i left the room for a few minutes and some how my little cuzin mannaged to deleate everything then shut down and restart my computer so i had no way of recovering the data and depending on how the story goes i might post it. depending....

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i hope everyone had fun this weekend. did anyones plains change at the last minute? if so what happened? hope everyone had fun cuz i didnt. i get ungrounded on tuesday so hopefully i dont get into anymore troubble anywhere between now and then. im ploaying ms goodie goodie so i can get my phone back and start doing wat i want again. uggg..... i hate my little brother being in scouts. cuz since he is in scouts ihave to help deliver his popcorn... my mom forces him out to sell every year and then when it comes to delivering it he dont want to do it and he acts like a little ass and i don blame him. if i wer forced to sell over $2,300 worth of popcorn ide be a little ass about delivering it also.
ive been working on my story 4 just about 5 days now and and ive got just a little bit over 20 pages im still haveing troubble with charectors though. so if any of you wouldnt mind createing a few charectors for me ide greatly appreaciate it...... hmmm im bored well i gots to go ill post later

story

im wrighting a story... im nawt that far in it. right now im stuck with the makeing charectors... thats the part that i always sucked at cuz i klant come up with orriginal names and when i go to discribe them i like them to seem other worldly... like with strange colors 4 there eyes and for there hair and stuff....any one want to help????

im so exciteded

i get ungrounded on december 1st... right now i have nothing to do that weekend but if i kan talk my mom into it....... i might... hmmm i just rememberd that 2marrow is THANKSGIVEING!!!!!!!!

happy thanksgiveing everyone!!! hope you all have fun this weekend... me i dont have anything to do for thanks giveing.. my family has a gettogether but we dont gots the gas money to go... so the only thing we are doing this weekend is cooking a turkey... we never do anything... wll i hope all yalls have fun this weekend...

anyone have anyplains for the weekend????? going to c family? having a party? anything????...

(sorry if i am spelling thinkgs wron when i get excited my fingers like to type faster than my mind n sometimes i dont catch it right away.)

followers...

ok i really want to know who my followers are i know who 3 of them are but who are the other two?????? someone named angrygandhi and kara.... who are you two people???? im just currious if you would please let me know that would really help thank you

4 people aint enough

the subject most likely says it all....... 4 people isnt enough to save my blog im sorry,..... deadline is still christmas though

fake names on the post (below this one) comments

o wow.... that is so funny.... who ever that was that put ron that was pure genious and the other ione that was funny also lolz... (note: it may seem like sarcasm but its not)

hi! :)

ok i officially hate spanish class...... it is difficult.... AND THANKS TO MY STUPID TEACHER I HAVE BIDDI BIDDI BOM BOM STUCK IN MY HEAD!!!!!!!! AND IMMA PROB HAVE OTHER FRIGGIN SPANISH SONGS IN MY HEAD!!!!!! i absalutly hate spanish class.... i mean it is so fun to speak in spanish when people dont know wat you are saying and it is a fun language but its just really difficult.... i do better ass a self learner... ive taught myself alot of bad stuff in spanish lolz.... but who kares anyways right???? i dont get y i keep this blog only two people read it and theres no point to keeping it cuz i tell them most this shiz anyways so whats the point.... if anyone wants me to keep this that does read it then post comments on it telling me 2 keep it..... and only one comment per person....GARY!!!! NO MULTI COMMENTS..... o and when you comment on this one put ur innitials under it... if you dont mind.... if you even want me to keep it... if i dont have wat i think is enough comments by christmas i will deleat my blog and i will not post anything again......

skewl email

if you want to email me you kan use my skewl email it is ..... LB3153@k12.sd.us.... please do not abuse my skewl email by emailing me with stupid shit i dont want to hear.... this post was ment 4 only a few people but if you want to get to know me better or something or just want to say hi go for it im on it most of the time so i might replie almost right away and if i dont than that means i am in a class where i kant or im takeing a test but i will replie as soon as compleatly possible

COMMENTS

IF YOU ARE GOING TO COMMENT PUT UR INNITIALS UNDER THE COMMENT SO I KNOW WHO THE FLIP IT IS.... IT IS ONE OF MY PET PEEVES THAT EVERYONE COMMENTS UNDER ANNONOMUS or however its spelled... BUT SERIOUSLY IS IT TOO HARD FOR YALLS TO PUT SOME NOTIFICATION THAT ITS YOU???????

PS... IM NAWT YELLING OR ANGRY I JUST HAVE THIS IN CAPS TO GET MY POINT ACROSST... THANK YOU!

this is prob gunna b a long one cuz its gunna b a two in one sort of thing

well for starters.....
saturday was the most amazeing day of my life... i got to spend it with my one true love.. and when i woke up on sunday morning i immidiatly thought that saturday was just a dream a fantasy that my mind came up with to make me happy or something.. it seemed to surreal to dream like but then as the day went on all i could do was think about it.... i tried reading all day to see if that would make anything click in my brain telling me yes this did happen then as i was thinking the thought i was searching for poped into my head.. it turns out that saturday was real it was just so amazeing that it seemed fake... but later that night i snuck on the computer and was talking to my boyfriend then just as i was about to respond to his message on myyearbook my stepdad came into the liveingroom and caught me.... there is so much more i could say on this......
so if ur reading this hun i wasnt ignoreing you i just got caught thats all.....
ok the second part of this.......
so far freshman year has turned out to be the worst year of my life other than a few things that have turned out right (my BOYFRIEND my FRIENDS and my SISTER are the only good things that i have this year..) other than those few things the rest is shit... the farther i go the more troubble i get into the longer i get grounded and the more people i piss off.... i dont try to do any of this.. it just happens.. (ok i mean to piss the teachers off but thats a different story...) what i need to do is turn my life around... i need to start doing my homework trying wiht skewl... no latenight calls nomore goofing off nomore anything that gets me in troubble....... (FUCK THAT SHIT.... that seems like alot of work......... maby ill just do the homework part.... that still seems like alot of work...) hmmmm ill figure something out lolz........ hmmmm...... well i have to take a math test now... srry for this one being really long... but i did warn you....

there is so much more i could say on this topic but i dont think yalls want to hear it and im running out of class time lolz...
o ps... i might edit this later

im a lill scared about tomarrow...

my mom is giveing me a ride tomarrow and who knows what shes going to do..... she changes her crazy mind every 2 flipping seconds... but she is so kewl... but if i we like hey mom after i get out drive off or something like that she would prob b like ok then when she drops me off roll down the window n say something to whoever or something... she is fucking crazy... but i love her cuz shes awsome...

hmmmm. who knows wat shes gunna do 2marrow... nawt to mention she is always like a half hour early for like everything so if she is early picking me up 2marrow imma b so pissed...

ooo so im in this thing called the venture crew and i sold like 1 thing of popcorn and she was like hey you get a badge for selling n she showed it to me n i said fuck that shit n she laughed at me lolz......

OMG I SO KANT FLIPPING WAIT

2marrow is saturday and i kant wait.. i get to c my boyfriend and ive waited along time to c him... we plained on cing eachother like a week ago i think but than i got grounded then we plained this weekend and i got introubble again but luckily my mom is still letting me go c him cuz i think she knows if i dont get to c him she will never hear the end of it.... cuz she knows when it comes to hanging with my friends or my boyfriend she knows if she cancels it more than once she will never hear the end of it... lolz...

and hun if you are reading this... me getting into troubble was nawt ur
fault.... it was my fault i got caught on the phone.... just bcuz you wer on the
other side of the phone call does nawt mean that it is your falt

.... hmmmm.... i love my bf..... i kant wait till saturday so i kan c him....

hmmm....... i dont know wat to talk about... lolz i find this funny sometimes on facebook or something i will put comments onn peoples statuses saying i have no comment to that n then they get confused and if they are nawt my friend they add me n are like wtf its so fun being random.....

well i best get off now... leave me comments damn you........ if i had my flashdrive stewie would b telling you but i aint got it with me

pix

here are only some of the pix

i found som really kewl pix

imma upload all my pix on here just in kase i loose this flash drive also but i kant do it right now because i dont have the flash drive on me but hey the are sooper maga kewl... ok nawt really they are just pix most are funny bumper stickers you kan find on myspace or myyearbook or something you know they are just we but yeah imma upload them so i kan still have them for if i loose this last flash drive i have left... it still makes me soooper sad face that i lost the other flash drive......
oooooo i only have friday staniding in my way now.... tomarrow is friday and if i play my cards rigbt it will fly by and saturday will come all that faster...... ooo i kant wait till saturday.......
oooooooo... i dont know if i said this or nawt but...... IVE BEEN TO THE DARK SIDE THEY LIED ABOUT THE COOKIES.... lolz.... i think i did already say that but i just had to say it

i kant put pix with my posts anymore

im so sad cuz i kant put pix with my post for a while cuz i lost my flash drive that had all my pix on it so that makes me sad so its going to take a while till i get new pix so i kant put pix on till then sorry to all of you that read my posts for the pix im sorry..... it shouldnt take long to get new pix..... well i better get to work post later

:(

i kan only spend just a few hours with my boyfriend... its better than nothing i guess... ong i got my phone taken away 4 two more weeks cuz i was talking on it all night and i got caught... **note to self.... be a hell of a lot quieter and no more laughing when i am on the phone from midnight to 5AM....** lolz.... hmmmmmmmmm im really board i have no idea how some of my post wind up being so flipping long when i kant think of anything to put...... wow ummm i have no idea... wow... omg i kant wait till saturday..... eeven though i only get a few hours with him its still better than nothing.... mmmmm i so kant wait....

I KANT WAIT TILL SATURDAY

i am so excited i get to c my boyfriend this saturday only a few short days away although i think that time is nawt going fast enough it needs to hurry up and and fly past the next few days and then slow down on saturday so i kan be with my boyfriend......hmmmmm i know that is a weird way of putting it but who kares....... im so eexcited..... oooooooooooooo i sao kan not wait till saturday.... my heart is trying to punch its way out of my chest im just that excited..... ive been waiteing to c him for a long time cuz i woulda been able to c him last weekend but i got grounded for a reason ide rather not mention.... and yeah but anywho that was a dissapointment but im just so excited that i atleast get to go c him.... my sister says that i choose the wrong weekend to c my bf n when i asked y she was like cuz new moon is in theaters n stuff n i was like if you had a choice to go c a stupid movie or be with ur bf.... i dont know about you but to me the choice is verry simple.... MY BOYFRIEND WINS HANDS DOWN..... now if there is anyone that would rather go c new moon than hang out with there boyfriend they are seriously messed up in the head majorly......... its just so stupid that someone would rather go watch a movie than hang out with there boyfriend (if your a guy you kan change bf to gf in the approprate arreas....)..... ok i lost my tran of thought... o whelll i was probably rambling anyways this is prob the longest post ive posted also so if you read this leave me a comment telling me wat u think..... im sposed to b doing homework in detention right now but i already have my homework done so i decided to make a post ;)..... ok im rabling and im sorry for wasteing the time it took you to read this...... wait y am i appologiseing..... i dot know..... damn it now im talking to myself on here and in my head.... ok shut up already... no you shut up... no you... no you....wow imma go b4 this drives me even more insain

i'z is sad face.....

i lost my flash drive that had all my pix on it and everything.... im super sad now

i am so excited

i get my phone back 2marrow and i get to c my bf in exactly 5 or 6 days depending on how you count it..... with the way i count it it would b 5 days others might count it as 6 it just depends on ur views..... oooooo ma gawd.... i kan not wait till i get to c him...

this is my lill bro and sis names they kept bugging me so i generated there names

i am so board

a whole week without my phone and not being able to talk to my boyfriend THATS 7 WHOLE DAYS PEOPLE DO YOU KNOW HOW CRAZY THIS IS DRIVING ME........... but atleast i convinced my mom to let me have my phone 2day so i can call him and talk to him..... i kant wite till the 21st i get to hang out with my boyfriend i am so happy but so sad oooo i just rememberd i get my phone reinstated on monday so i kan talk to him more and thats also when i get ungrounded........ hmmmmmmmm im so board right now.......i absalutly hate math class.... i mean im pretty good at math and stuff i just dont like the teacher and the way he teaches.... he is so stupid.... anyways wat was i talking about i dont know i was talking about my phone n then i wound up talking about math.... how does that work out?????? who cares im just that tierd and i dont really kare..... but anywho i kant wait till i get to c my boyfriend im so happy...... but i better get off be4 my teacher starts yelling at me so bye 4 now...........

pix of my friends names

this is all of the names i have so far........ if you want ur name done all you have to do is leave a comment with the name you want and ur 3 favorite colors.......and i will get it done and published

something i wil do in time....

i will eventually deleat the posts of my friends names so i kan load them all at the same time so i dont have to bother with so manny posts that dont say a damned thing...... hmmmmm i will do that probably durring studyhall......... i am so happy cuz i get to c my new boyfriend on the 21st... well i woulda got to c him this weekend but i went and got myself grounded... stupid move i know but that doesnt really matter since i get to c him here soon.... i get ungrounded on monday so thats good.... and i will upload pix of my new bfs name..... he makes me so happy..... ps... his name is darren..... ok welll thats all imma say for now so i will go and post later i dont kare if anyone reads my blog or not i still think it is fun to make random posts........................................................................ hmmmmmmmmmmm i just realized that i dont have a new picture to put on here so i guess this one will b picturelesss...... :(

ok i dont know if i posted this yet or not so imma post it anyways

HURT

it hurts to know

that you dont love me

it hurts to know you lie

but no matter how much

you hurt mei will always

be by ur side

crying and begging

for you to never leave

i need you badly

you keep me at ease

i know you love me too

how deep i will never know

my love is unconditional

and i will love you untill the end of eternity..............

btw... i wrote this when i was in my previous relationship but and i nolonger think that way.... no i have an amazeing boyfriend that treats my nice and makes me feel special unlike my idiot ex....well i should prob get off b4 start gettin nasty............i dont know wat to use for a picture so i will just upload something random

i know this has nothing to do with the subject but i just like the pic i find it kindof ironic

hmmmmmmmmm i am so excited

I KANT WITE TILL THIS WEEKEND...... hopefully my parents let me go c my new man this weekend.... im so hopeing i get to this weekend..... im really board right now and i dont know wat to say......o here is somethig i might b getting suspended from skewl.... im so stupid..... my parents are going to kill me and if i do get suspended then that means i wont b able to c my bf cuz i b grounded indefantly................have i ever metioned how in some ways my life sux majorly...... but in other casses such as my bf its awsome so i just have to tough it out untill then n hope for the best..........welll im sighningh off now lates.......

this isnt the picture i wanted the one i wanted was on my phone n i kant get it from my phone onto my computer at skewl so but this one is just basicly the same picture except the other one is a lill bit darker and it looks alot kewler...... well tata 4 now.....lolz.....:)

hmmmmmmmmmm

i am so board right now the internet at my house isnt working right now so i kant be on my blog for too long...... :( sad face ):....... but any-who i am so really board but i have to go cuz im on my cuzins computer and they are verry fusssy on how long im on n ive already been on 4 an hour so i gtg... ill post later i promis

:)

i am haveing the best day ever 2day.......i had a dog collar and i got a leash from someone n people are freaking out about it.... it scares them some how.... but i find it extreamly funny..... but yeah............ im really happy.....

i juat realized something really importaint

when you lose someone that you loved n then they say that they never loved you that makes it hurt alot less........but it does hurt alot at first.... but then you realize that you never loved them eather you wer just inlove with the fact that you had someone to call your own and someone that made you feel special n now that you realize it was all in vain it just doesnt seem to matter anymore the pain the hurt the waisted time it just doesnt seem to matter i will finish this later cuz i have to go.... bye

i hate liers...

we shall call my friend Bob.. and his cousing kat.. i hate people who lie to me so they dont have to tell me something....durring SRB the other day Bob was told by his cousin kat to tell me something then when he started telling me he stoped n was like no i forgot im not sposed to tell you cuz kat doesnt like you at all.... n kat is one of my best friends it just makes me so mad cuz that means that Bob reallly isnt my friend.... n then when i asked kat wat it was that Bob said he couldnt tell me i wanted to kick Bob cuz he is such an ass....... uggggggg. well i got to go time is almost up so ill post more later....

ps... i still want to hurt Bob

best halloween/worst bday ever......

omg this halloween was the best halloween ever i got to c my bf after nawt being able to c him for three weeks but anyways i had so much fun i dressed up as a green which n went trick-or-treating (NO I AM NOT TO OLD TO GO TRICK-OR-TREATING (and if you think i am you kan go suck a choed....)) and my bf omg it was so funny.... he said that he was a manly girl scout but if you ask his sister her friend our friend marea and i we all say that he was dressing up as a cross dresser anyways... it was so much fun..... i spent almost the whole day with him n i had so much fun......

and really my bday was just like all the other chores n forced to stay home and do nothing special for my bday i mean i got to c my bf the day b4 but it woulda been nice to c him on my bday also though n he got sick cuz he didnt wear a jacket durring trick-or-treating..... but on the plus side i did get people telling me happy bday all day n i did get to talk to my bf but anyways yeah most of it was pretty bad.....

o yeah n my parents wont stop hovering over me when i do my home work n it sux... it pisses me off so bad.....

ewwwwww.... i just went to confrences last nigh

i really dont like confrences now my parents are gunna hover over me when i do my homework so now i kant go on some wwebsites i want untill im done with homework n i dont even think ill be able to get on after that n that really sux..... i rally hate my life there are only a few good things in my life and thats wat keeps me 2gether and keeps me from doing stupid shit like my boyfriend my friends ive been talking to l8ly and some of my family other than that the world kan kiss my ass

topaz is gunna talk about topaz in the third person again

Topz is so happy right now Topaz gets to c Topaz's boyfriend this weekend so topaz is extreamly happy if anyone has anything they want Topaz to talk about just tell Topaz Topaz will be happy to listen then Topaz will blog about it Topaz says this is gunna be so much fun but Topaz is really board right now Topaz wants to know if anyone knows any good music that Topaz can get cuz Topaz wants new music but Topaz doesnt know wat to get.........

omgz.... im freaking out.....

i have to make a speech that gets recorded and sent out for judgeing by veterens n its like a nation wide compatition n ive ask a coupple people wat they think a few said it was ok another one said so manny things that i might as whell have re wrote the paper n i asked my teacher n she was like its fine.... im like NICE WAY TO BUILD MY CONFIDENCE B*I*T*C*H!!!!!!! i hate speech class hmmm i really dont want to give this speech it is absalutly terrible and im prob gunna b the first one eliminated which sux yeah i know nice way to build my self coonfidence but we i dont kare any more i just want skewl to be done and over with i just want to skip through it.................................................... welll imma go get my stupid speech done and over with oravua

hey yalls

hey this is just a random post cuz im in studyhall and i am really board so ok ummmm hi.......... i dont partucularily like skewl n im just really board i have no idea why im makeing this post but i figured since i havent posted in a while i might as well do something so here it is nawt that interesting is it ooooo i gots some really kewl pix

ok i really didnt want to use this one but i couldnt find the other one i wanted so this is wat i put instead

f*** love...

really what is love does anyone know.... cuz i thought that true love kan concure anything but obviously i was wrong.... dead wrong..... love doesnt exsist it is just a falce hope that people think they feel when they are attracted to some one.... i let my gaurd down n my heart got smashed into a thousand tiney little peices.... so if you say that love is real you are wrong its stupid and meaningless... F*U*C*K LOVE.......................

lolz i jkjk but that is some peoples view on love cuz they cant find the right person to spend it with to love to b loved by.... so in my oppinion love is real and it can b found... sometimes in the most unlikely place like at ur parents christmas party or a friends birthday party.... who knows but it kan be found you just have to keep looking

new poem

i have a new poem that i should most likely post n im going to but i dont have the time right now i mean i dont have the classes that i can get on the computer otherwise i would post it then,...... i would post it now but there are only a few minutes left of class n i need to get my stuff gatherd to go home soooo... ill post it later

hahahahahahahahaha i find this extramly funny

i have basic wood as a class and its anything but easy and i am the only girl in my class with 6 or 7 gpuys (nawt a big class but still a class(i needed the credit n i like working with wood it calms me....) lolz i just got that that can b so wrong but who cares back to wat i was saying...... it is midterms today and i am done with two full projects with nothing to do but come up with a thirrd project..... i dont want to do that so im on my computer.... but anyways im needing to find a third project and all the guys in my class are just starting on there second project..... its pretty funny that and i have the best grade in the class.... i just find that really funny and if i make a mistake i know how to make it look like its sposed to b like that... hmmm.... im board with this post now imma upload my picture for it then post it..... haha i know you didnt ask for a play by play but i dont care i find it rather funny

newest poem HURT

it hurts to know
that you dont love me
it hurts to know you lie
but no matter how much
you hurt me i will always
be by ur side
crying and begging
for you to never leave
i need you badly
you keep me at ease
i know you love me too
how deep i will never know
my love is unconditinal
and i will love you till the end of eternity.....
ok i know it sux but i made it up on the spot i didnt think i just wrote

sadness

i am sad now... my bday is gunna b forgotten about there is not gunna b anything special going on for my bday and im probably gunna b sitting at home all by my lonesome tis sux big harry monkey b***z..... hmmm..... i really dont know wat to do ifeel like crawling under a rock n eather dieing or crying... i had somethin gspecial planned for my bday but since the person i want to spend it with is grounded till basicly the end off all eternity i kant do anything it makes me so sad........ i feel like crap right now i think i might b comeing down with something which is surprizeing bcuz i never get sick i havent been sick since the 4th grade......... i have nothing to talk about....... ooooo a bug...... it was on my computer screeennn.... splat... haha i killed it... its now a dead buggy

holey shiz nits

O MA GAWD IT IS F***ING COLD OUSIDE..... wow.... i dont like winter it is 2 cold....and i dont like the summer cuz its two hawt... omg i kant believe i never posted this one i feel so stupid now... well ok maby i am stupid but that is beside the point.............

i dont know wat to name this one....random rant

i love to draw n create designs n stufff but i absalutly hate art class... i kant stand it you try to do something the way you think it should be done and the way you like it then the teacher pops out of nowhere n starts yelling at you that you are doing it wrong n that it has to be exactly the way they have it done... if they want it done there way so badly then y dont they make a copy of it give it to every student n tell them to coppy it .... i made that suggestion to they teacher n she was all like its nawt sposed to b exactly the same as mine then i said then we should b able to do it the way we think it looks right n she was like no its sposed to be done the way i have it done... if you ask me that makes no sence cuz she just counteracted what she said.. i do not like art class at all... i like to draw free style of art nawt the way teachers say it has to b done....... n our student art teacher is the same way n when i asked him to show me how to draw something he was like you kan do it figure it out and bla bla bla bla bla it was like yeah real nice help... HE WAS TEACHING SPOSED TO BE TEACHING THE CLASS CUZ OUR TEACHER HAD HIM DO THAT....... that just pisses me off when teachers do that..... I KANT STAND IT!!!!!!!!!!!! i almost ditched class too.. i got my agenda sygned to go to the bathroom n i was gone for like a half our thats only 1/3 of the class period though.... i got to go now i might finish this rant later may not... i have to do stupid dishes..... uggg... endless torture

November 1st & 26th

i know this picture doesnt belonge with the subject but i like it n if you dont like that i put it there you kan go suck an egg...

i kant waite till November 1st and 26th mainly cuz the first is my bday and im more excited for the 26th nawt bcuz it is thanxgiveing bcuz thats the day my bfs birthday is we r only 1 year and 25 days apart kan you believe that omgz i so kant waite i am so excited..... uuuuugggg still in math class have nothing to do then i realize that october is almost half over and i got excited cuz i relize wat next month is NOVEMBER!!!!!!! i am so happy n board uuuugggg does anyone know wat i kan do to pass the time in class????? i have 4 classes a day A days and B days each class is an 1 & 1/2 hours long.... i kant b on the computer the whole time cuz i get yelled at.. i kant tell you how manny times ive been yelled at by teachers this year..... surprizeingly i havnt gotten any detentions yet....... im maga oober galacticly board... i know that may nawt make sence to some but it makes compleate sence to me.......... well i have to go on break now so i have to publish this and do we the teacher says so ttyl yalls...... ;)

math test...

yay my math test has been posponed yay i hate math i absalutly hate it n im no good at it but surprizeingly i pass the quizes n tests n im passing the class but i hate math i kant stand it.... have i mentioned that i hate math???? lolz.... the main reason i am bloging about skewl right now is maby bcuz im at skewl n i dont like it and i find it surprizeing that i am passing hmmmmmmm.... like i said earlyer im sposed to b doing homework but im nawt im on blogspot instead.... HAHAHA skewl sux.... but i do get to c my friends at skewl so thats the only pluss other than the computers and skewl email... but we still have so manny restrictions with the internet its nawt funny... they wont even alow us to look up pictures on yahoo... but i found a cheet to get around that i think its funy how i kan outsmart skewl teachers and teck geeeks that work on our computers.... again i say I HATE HOMEWORK!!!!!!!!!!!! but at least the test was posponed even if we do have homework... actually i would have rather taken the te cuz i couldof passed the test n gotten it over with now i have to wate to pass the test.... did i mention i hate skewl..... if i have bad grammer i appologise thats just how i talk bad grammered... i try to use good grammer but you know its funner to use bad grammer n have people wander wat the hell you are saying... well anyways i might as wellpost this n do some other stuff i have other websites n stuff to go on but i will blog occasionally you kan count on that....